Beautiful, Fragile, Temporary

I woke at 3am to the silence only snow brings. The house had gotten very cold, the wood stove unable to keep up against the chill without someone feeding it every hour. The baby finished his feed and rolled over back to sleep. I got up and peed, fed the stove, watched the snow fallContinue reading “Beautiful, Fragile, Temporary”

2020 Census

I took the 2020 Census online last week and aside from the major issue I have with the not-so-veiled racism, which I will leave for another time, my major concern right now is that I told the government how many people were alive in my house on the day I filled it out and whileContinue reading “2020 Census”

Stop Saying “Fine”

“How are you?”“Fine.” Every conversation between casual acquaintances I am guilty of ignoring my feelings and robotically saying “fine” when asked how I am. It’s a habit. It’s a wall. It’s a lie. I don’t mean to lie. I don’t consider myself a liar. But we can’t be “fine” all the time…hell, I don’t actuallyContinue reading “Stop Saying “Fine””

Our Lives Are Big

The other day an incredible author, roxane gay @rgay, on Twitter posted that this pandemic has been hell on her wedding planning. She then called that small. My heart broke. Weddings are huge. For some people their wedding is the ultimate big event of their lives, the thing they’ve been planning in some form sinceContinue reading “Our Lives Are Big”

The Bucket List

For the longest time she added things to her bucket list: skydive, participate in the Polar Plunge, visit Italy. The list got longer and longer. It was a good list. She felt good about it and would periodically review it to ensure the things on it hadn’t yet been completed, (they never had and theContinue reading “The Bucket List”

Pessimist or Realist

I live pretty far away from things, it’s a good hour plus drive to a Costco and while my little town has a grocery store it’s one of those pay three times as much as you would anywhere else because of fuel charges kind of store. Once a week, every week, I used to (inContinue reading “Pessimist or Realist”

Lockdown

It’s official, our state is now on lockdown. It’s been less than an hour since it was announced and already people are freaking out. I don’t get it. Why are you freaking out? Did you not see this coming? Italy warned us. The governor warned us. It happened. There was no broadside. Maybe, being anContinue reading “Lockdown”

Beauty and Terror

All my life and it has come to no more than this: beauty and terror Mary Oliver So many people seem to be living in terror, in barely checked panic. And rightfully so. There’s been so much fear the last three years. So many groups have been the target of so much hatred and anger.Continue reading “Beauty and Terror”