July 2023: Kim Pitts

“Mom is Pacing”

My Mom is pacing. Inside, a intiny voice says, “make it better” because I have been trying my whole life. That tiny voice also says, “you aren’t good enough : “ because I actually cannot do that. Then, a bigger voice, not quite as well used, but growing ever more recognizable says, “that’s not your job”. So I sit, thinking a part of me wants to make it better, a part of me wants to finally be able to acknowledge that it isn’t my job, and a new emerging patr of me struggles because it has to make a distinction between the two. Her sadness, I cannot make better. Her depression, I cannot make better. Her grief, I cannot make better. Not because I am unable, but because it was not my job. And to that tiny voice, I say, “I’m so sorry that you thought it ever was.”

Kim Pitts is a writer and compassionate humorist. Her unique and traumasaurus rex sized ability to turn awful situations into beautiful, hilarious stories of pure humanity can be found on Facebook and Instagram as My Life is The Pitts Family.